“I woke up to the abrupt ending of a beautifully penned love story, marriage and family. My world shattered before me. I lost grip of my life. I could not bring myself together. Because I took for granted that my life, my love story, my marriage and my family are strong and stable, I could not come to terms when they crumbled. This unexpected transition set me tumbling into emotional outbursts and mental meltdowns. I lost focus in my life. It affected my mind, health, relationships, friendships and career.

For over 14 years, I could not come to terms with the harsh reality and thus, lost focus in my life. I cried myself to sleep. I was scared. I was alone. I felt betrayed. I crumbled under the weight of living my life. I yearned for acceptance in the world which was not so forgiving because I was once upon a time, a Pastor’s wife, a lay Pastor myself. And in my attempt to escape my painful reality, I blundered – I became a total mess within.

But those turbulent years and painful experiences have taught me valuable lessons. Through which, I have realized my biggest pitfalls: Straddling myself in confidence that nothing can go wrong in life; Camouflaging the truth when I was not coping okay deep down; Taking myself for granted in failing to recognize my value.